Maybe

i never had this feeling

when every breath seems to be the last

when every blink is every second passed

time wasted

time thrown away

i wonder where you are tonight

wonder if you're thinking the same things as mine

memories playback inside my head

my hands to my face when i reminisce

those times that i thought we're the same

i thought it was the time, my time

of all the people that i loved,

of all the dreams that i had

you're the one that came to life to make them come true

i was excited

i was exhilarated

i was happy

i was in the middle of the road

dancing in the rain

celebrating my time

but then the truth hit me in the face

that's all a friendly gesture

friendly gesture i repeat to myself

my old lonely self came back to me like an old friend you dont want to see again

saying, you never really lost me

i was here all along. i know he's never yours to be

i looked up, tears started to rain on me

but i cant show it

this feeling i have to hide it

hoping to end this by myself

not letting you know.. you'll never know this

that everytime we're together

i look into your eyes

hoping to see a little love from you

now all is left are memories

of things misunderstood

of lies

of too much expectations

of regrets

of what ifs

of i should have done that..

of everything

of wishing

that those never happened

maybe im not like this now...

maybe im not lonely right now

maybe i dont love you now..